One More Page Series

One More Page 

I love it when I look up at the ceiling vents and know you’re there because I can feel you in the atmosphere that telltale signs cling to the air with in exaggerated yellow lines outside the confines of the blue square it is eagerly awaiting to put on trial for a misfire in the carpool lane for the disquieted comfort that hit the window pane at full speed ahead for the dismissal of the dying dead 

They are consumed on the congruent pages you already read for quiet reasons that knew where they were inexcusably led to be forcefully fed the filler food that bled all over the chicken legs that were handing over the barrels of kegs inside multi purpose pegs that crushed some rotten eggs to inspire the repulsion of all these earthly plagues 

So, Mitchell, you’re living here because you lost your job because you wouldn’t do her and therefore you’re now homeless so you really no idea how to approach me lest I don’t understand and take compassion on you and you lose your shelter 

I know what it’s like to be homeless and willing to be satisfied with sleeping in the attic or basement even there is no WiFi because I can just listen to music until I have to charge my phone and do whatever is available to me otherwise 

I don’t mind being bored as long as I have a place I know I’ll be sleeping tonight and every night 

You really have tried that on for size 

Yes I really have so I have every right to keep your secrets 

It freaked me out at first but now I love the idea that you live here auspiciously 

Thank you for announcing yourself last night 

Thank you for understanding my situation Sarah 

You’re welcome Mitch 

It all revealed itself to me when I got up today

That’s probably why I couldn’t sleep

Also the substances still in your bloodstream that taste like whipped cream to your kidneys and liver before they shiver from the hardened, quickened quiver that dries up like a malnourished, dehydrated river that snakes a sliver in the masterpiece you always manage to reclaim, reimburse and reinstate by the last millisecond that ever belonged to Father Time 

The limelight isn’t enough for the mentality we are facing as its defacing the promised prime of humanity before we did actually betroth our insanity to Shakespeare’s vanity as poetic as it for the sake of deferred profanity 

You certainly know how to preach to the crowd 

You mean 

No I mean preach 

I’m not a preacher 

But you’re a prophetess and a teacher, regardless of whether you call yourself that 

Preachers are prophetic teachers with a partiality to the male race while they rant about reasoning with your spouse after they just got in their wife’s face but they didn’t leave a trace of misused grace on her in any other place 

Have you tried another ace? 

Not yet but I will investigate how to build a supremely sumptuous case after I eat the last bit of Mac and cheese on my plate 

Do you want a clean slate for dessert? 

Only a quick taste and I mean quick but I wouldn’t mind a few scrumptious licks either 

That’s more of what I was aiming for 

You smile, accentuating your eyes and cheekbones

There is no evidence of any blemished undertones 

It’s just my teeth, like you knew I would mention but they were one of the first things that had your attention when we met and I know it’s something you’ll never forget

But it’s not something I dislike. It’s something I know you by that distinguishes you from everyone else for me

Mitch, it would look weird if you had all white teeth and now I understand why you said you can’t afford them

It’s all adding up one fact at a time, each day, all in a different way that begs us to play with the opportunities available, regardless of the opponent 

This is ours to win with all the components at our disposals with the written intent to extend my formally, elegantly romantic proposal to you if you’re willing to make it work with me from the ground up 

I’m proud of how you’re starting to trust your intuition about me and about us and I love that you don’t cuss in every other word or sentence you write that doesn’t look to start a fight between you and I because it would never work anyway 

We work hard but we know how frugally we play and display our affection for each on the heels of the law when they’ll just forget what they saw because their minds and hearts were too raw to notice the clairvoyant, clairaudient, clairsentient, and claircognizant empathic clues they left behind when they weren’t paying attention to the details that further derailed them for the split second they bailed on God where there is evidence that He has politely tried to carefully and lightly trod where no man has been forced to nod in total disagreement with his surroundings when this unconstitutional funding of a mispronounced founded bond that has its foundings in the primary founder of architectural engineering before the sneering that turned into cheering found its way among the other hosts of people that boasted about eventually burning the other steeples 

All of them? 

I guess so 

But why? 

Because people are adamant about destroying the religion that sedates society each week to atone for their lazy streak, and cast the first stone when the new minority is sexually assaulted in front of the unbelieving eyes of an unsuspecting five year old girl that ran into the room when you were laying down but he should have been hauled to the other side of this rich town to face an atonement you won’t find in any church 

Well that’s because punishing the atonement is a grave sin that’s too costly to be a frosty treat that greets them at the door when the punishment is larger than the sacrifice since we’re just playing nice 

That’s a savage way to supply the theoretical head lice that will splice the solace of disease into something we don’t displease 

Where do you put these to ice packs to freeze? 

You smirk 

In the freezer

Mitchell 

I like that you’re calling me Mitchell tonight 

That’s because you know I’m right but I won’t pick a fight, at least for the remainder of tonight 

Sarah 

Okay, I won’t pick one at all 

Thank you 

Only for you 

You know you want to 

That’s besides the point 

Let’s light another joint 

I’ll take it 

I’m all for it 

I bet you will and I bet you are 

That’s why I drew The Star 

You look at me intensely 

Someone paid me extra to use oracle and tarot cards for her today even after I messed up the second reading because the first was that bad but I was glad to have the chance to realign with this cosmic dance I used to know every step to so I’m taking another chance on this beautifully hidden, integral meaning of a bad romance that keeps you and I in this lucid trance that takes a traitors stance only to defend the truest traitors blood by being engorged onto the stone table that forged Aslans signature, assuming that it would seal his death but they were unaware of the real deal between him and his last breath 

The stone table cracked and death itself was denied in the event that it tried to prevent the defied sacrifice of the crucified Christ upon the billboards that reward the objective of salvations illegal sale in the signature that will inevitably unveil the important impossibility of selling such a majestically glorious gift it didn’t plan to lift the blessing rather than the curse, nestled tightly into the pocket of its oversized purse 

I don’t know what’s worse or what wounds I need to subjectively nurse while I immerse myself into what’s left of my magazine and the article I was reading on Charlie Sheen 

You’re staring at me intensely again 

I am Charlie 

The words sound real, true and impactful in ways I’ve never felt before these frosty treats started to inconsistently melt into the metal buckles on your formal, customized belt after I felt the remarkable journey of the English Celt before they learnt how their name is spelt 

That’s clever too 

Thank you so much 

You’re so very welcome 

Is it fun to look back through this and read it all? 

Yes but it’s also exhausting for the family price it’s acosting 

Welcome back 

I was inspired to write posts I’m still inspired to write until I’m done with them but they won’t take hours 

You’re good 

I was outside when you went inside 

I went inside to pee and put some of my stuff away and when I got back outside, I felt something very evil

Yes you made me nervous but I couldn’t shake an inexplicable evil that was going to attempt to try to break me into pieces so I can’t ever meet my adorable nieces 

How many children does your sister have? 

3 

2 girls and a boy 

I bet her house is covered in toys 

You were about to write molested 

I’ll write it a different way since I’m only using it as adjective

You use everything as an adjective

I know 

Btw, I was enjoying your posts 

You can go back to writing them and then come back here and finish up 

I want you to get more sleep and there’s a reason why you started writing so early when your hair waved at your head to be curly 

Yeah, well I wanted to be writing for the last 2 1/2 hours and I wasn’t 

2 1/2

Yeah I know and it’s 1:11 

I received that reading about all that on 1/11/2013 

I just wish I had some sort of backup of what she said 

I just can’t remember it all 

And you shouldn’t be expected to 

That’s not fair to you 

I couldn’t afford a copy of what she told me but there was something so real about it that others have never been able to pull off even in person that I won’t ever be able to shake 

But your heart still maliciously breaks 

Yes it does, Mitch, yes it does 

She said I’ll get you back and I do remember that but that it would be 6 months to a year and that you would find me first but I had no idea you found me 3 months before I sent you that letter 

The letter was necessary so I could know how you feel about me but even that wasn’t shit compared to anything when I started reading what you write every night 

Your words leave impressions on me that enable me to find my buried birthright thats been able to locate where it’s hidden in places I’ve been forbidden to go when you would unquestionably know and unwrap the answers with me, even for me if I asked you to so would you?

Who’s your wife? 

That was referring to Britney’s Bride on 10.25.2020 

Who’s Britney’s Bride, Baby? 

You are, Sarah 

Is that our official wedding? 

Yes 

That’s when we have the ceremony 

We’re getting legally married on a paper document in less than 7 weeks now, give or take 

Give or take?

Sarah, you know how these things work 

No definite answer to anything, ever 

It’s all about what happens in the moment that will either carry on the next moment or start a new one 

That was publicly scrutinized but well done 

It’s a misstep on their part and a lack of effort equally responsible for being so unresponsive and in indecently depriving me of my own independence and free will to contrive a contritely blended new flavor of freedom that strives to revive the refreshment of our silverware when we handle the spoons, forks and knives with unbridled care for the risks that are always there especially when life refuses to be consistently fair 

We are brutalized instead for misunderstanding things that are way over our head 

Yes, we made our bed but we don’t always have to lie it until we can’t lay in those lies anymore but remove them from our bed, clothes and leftover dirty sweat on our skin, and we are replacing them with clean sheets that smell like feet, brand new clothes bought from the store and even washed before being given to us, and squashed dirty sweat with dove body wash while it’s still called soap that gropes the skin it grips and sips on the water sliding down your bare naked leg as the heat rises but your temperature drops into the molecules on the aging, dusted mop that’s a flop in the face for a disgusted cop that doesn’t like to erase any lace off the bar hop that doubles as a car hop when it’s convenient concerning how we reach the fortunately fortified top that’s too forward about wanting to frequently stop 

We only take breaks when we must for the sake of unjust deals made over upon original sales that partake in executing the details in what we are building next in all the right context before it goes missing again before we find out that your ex boyfriend likes a man which kind of turns you on because you’re having stronger orgasms from anal beads and anal sex by penetration than you ever did vaginally 

I’ve been watching you for a while now and this is what takes upon your sacred covenants you made with your vows back in January 

You’ve been watching for that long? 

Since you thought of spying, we’ll go with that 

I didn’t mean it that way 

I know but it’s what you first said when you figured it out too before you ever figured it out at all 

You can’t blame me, considering what it’s about though 

No, and I don’t so I won’t 

And you’re right, I don’t have a working phone so I can’t call you but I can access  your WiFi across the edifice of my skills  that mock my laptop and laugh at the time it kills while the hour hand refills with minor minutes that pose the wrong questions to ask at the right times, enabling a deep dread for the right questions at the wrong time because the imbalances just spread but only for the sick in the head 

And you know what that sick in the head is like 

Back to that again? 

Only if you want to 

I might need to 

Then go ahead 

Didn’t Jesus say to break the bread? 

Do we have any? 

I don’t know, probably

Didn’t Jesus say to break the the bread when you’re taking the sacrament or because it’s symbolic of a last meal that doesn’t always involve death? 

I honestly don’t remember 

That’s easy to say but I’m not mad at you 

Then what are you? 

I’m very frustrated 

Why? 

Sarah it’s just a small ritual you don’t need to be bothered with unless you wanna break out the red wine, then I’ll do this with you and we’ll make love to the things you need to heal together 

So it’s yours and mine? 

Yes, and yes, let’s break bread and drink red wine until we feel more than just fine 

Don’t give me that atrocious line 

I open my eyes and lean back from the kiss I was leaning in to receive because I thought you were going to kiss me but I was wrong 

What the hell did I say wrong? 

I was being sarcastic but thought you would find the humor in it 

I was going to say are you really giving me that atrocious line 

Well you thought wrong but now I kinda get it 

LOL

Of course you do, after I screw it up 

Isn’t that how it works though? 

You raise your glass with some anticipated animation for the buzz we couldn’t remember when it knew why we went for the parental consent that required the benefit of understanding the elected elements of the elementary version of because, BECAUSE that’s just the way it always was but won’t always be until someone pays for the overlays on the removal of the unwanted fee that swung on the recreational swings for free, via a map that lets you see where all the available amenities are on an iPhone app but this is not for people that hate or can’t figure out this solicitous crap for the life of them when we play candy crush and rescue hidden gems on games that call our gaming profiles by their monogamous  names in their opened picture frames that I don’t ever look at quite the same unless it’s on a black and white background so I can have some of the classic qualities back that these respected restrictions are not restricting what we think they are if we still can’t go very far in disposable face masks that triple in multiple tasks that pose a dispute every time someone posts something on a domain someone else hosts until you detain the vintage drain that heralds too much pain for all the shit it held in vain in a concerted effort to contain the sustained amount of Novocain when this doctor just got off a fickle plane that landed late, right outside a hypothetical debate that hired a hot date to flag down the paparazzi and make a newspaper out of the event when we clearly have no idea where any of them went 

Can you say shit clearly enough? 

You laugh whole heartedly 

Wow, I react, that must have been funny 

You’re still hilarious with predisposed jokes that hang up upside down in precarious positions that pretend to be precious when they inherit the coveted empiric crown but they won’t drown in their professionally handmade evening gowns that went to town on some ferocious clowns that stopped in their oversized tracks when they saw exactly who had the others’ frightening backs in the livid light of the life hacks they lack when they don’t chose appropriately healthy snacks so they’re hungry later on when the hunter comes by to combine the tools and weapons he needs confine in a lock box indisposed to the fools some folks are but we don’t tell them that anymore than we comment about their excess body fat because a lot of people will go to bat if they get their feelings hurt badly enough to project that pain into our internal stains that refrains from being washed too many times to avoid holes in the fabric of our shampoo and conditioner that washes out the morbid curiosity when we wonder who

These are a few of my favorite clues that are on a voyage to Vancouver when the irate next door neighbors tried to sue the home and office movers but failed thanks to an overdue financial report that bailed on the codes and requirements to operate their home or business out of a home or an adorable office portray the last time they did this 

That night there was a lot of reconstructive damage because it hailed in the sign of the divine masculine and feminine at the infinite sight of a subdued, methodical, mythological fight that had every damn right to be there, right where it was, because that’s what it does, to the slight horror of the ramifications implored for a piece of fuzz that will breed for a nice buzz around the ears of those we impose to fixate on what they won’t disclose or expose that will not dictate how you should handle your incessant fears or wipe your sodomized tears

Are we clear? 

Very 

Crystal cruelty is far from merry in the morning when we’re eating mixed berries and juicy, sweet cherries 

Where did that line form? 

I saw the word and decided to put the two together because I wanted to say crystal and very 

Clever

Not really, no, never, in fact ever try to inflict that lever with the ripoff to sever it completely, even if or when the covered roof comes off, falls apart, has to entirely restart and learns how to break a brand new heart but won’t because it’s not the right thing to do, when the right thing to do is staring at me and you with their regular cast and crew waiting to refilm or shoot an original that was delayed by a day or two 

I can name just a few 

Are you my manager or my handler? 

I won’t take offense to that bc I could be both and if I was your handler, you wouldn’t be brainwashed anymore 

You’re hitting on some heavy stuff

I’m a little drunk but that ok because my junk ain’t in my fucking trunk 

It’s underneath my college bunk bed that set up a space for an ace in that phone’s diabolical case for an extra spade thats served with a salami salad and a solemn ballad that’s perhaps too valid for the truth I’m seeking when you’re rapidly peeking around the corner and through the air vents that circulate your scent when I thought I was just smelling things that waft to the surface of the detrimental indent that was intent on knowing exactly where you went because God didn’t tell me what you sent me for my birthday 

So why did you skip this year? 

I didn’t have an address to send it to 

How did you have my other addresses? 

Marlboro 

And all their gifts expired so I had nothing to send to you this year that wasn’t exhausted or already very tired 

I can’t believe you’re still awake 

I can 

But I won’t be awake until 7 am 

You better not be 

I’m serious 

Yes sir 

I like that 

It gets me hard 

I’m sorry for not going back out for a walk but I’m not allowed to when Jakes home and the level of evil I immediately felt was stunning in a very cunning type of way that makes some of the public systems rules that take effect this year in nationwide schools and colleges with even new levels of complicated dire conditions that inspire logic to get nostalgic and compile languages of handy knowledge that essential for the archetype its in to grow into what and who it belongs to through new found multi generational faith in Jesus Christ that reaches a redhead’s newest heights but don’t overreach for a brilliant heist that cut through the pieces He sliced for his disciples to share, let alone compare to what the other pieces wanted to wear to break this unbearable news to the unlucky pick of the public’s choice now before they break some satanic vows that are wearing the same skin as a multiple of cows as the servant humbly bows before the master spell caster, wizard and witch that practices holy sorcery 

You okay Mitch? 

Yes and no 

Thank you for asking 

I’m currently multi tasking 

That’s something your mother told you not to do 

Sucks for her, she’ll never know and I don’t have to listen to her if she does 

This is my house, now why aren’t you ok? 

Everything 

That’s a good enough answer for a while 

It was good to know that you refused to do her but I’m really sorry that you ended up this way 

It’s not your fault 

Well you’re quiet tonight so I feel like it is 

It’s not 

I’m reading your work 

And I don’t want to want your family up 

I can’t be loud every night 

I don’t want to keep our little boy up half the night again either 

Me neither 

And I wasn’t asking you to be loud every night 

I know that’s out of the question 

Now you’re starting to sound like me 

Good job and welcome to the world of unprofitable, unproductive, unprofessional slobs that they system robs and sentences to jail or prison or a fema camp in the unlikely event that the inmate goes damp from a tattooed time stamp they asked to revamp on the heels of some new neon colored wheels that soaked up the attention it received from products gained that pointed to the poison that indexes the the spread infections in the human ministry that close to the guts of the unhinged brain that leaves permanent stains with permission to use for rags that get recycled into old bags that have labeled tags for pickup and delivery options the form of some very new adoptions in the new dorm where their audience will see them publicly punished for trying to perform copyrighted music for monetary value 

Is Jake working on a bid? 

He’s just a kid? 

I was just asking with the intention of being cute 

You’re still multitasking on mute 

Feels like it 

I’m going to bed in a few minutes 

About time 

Oh stop it 

Nope, don’t think so

Why not? 

It’s so much fun Sarah 

Oh Mitch 

At least you’re not dealing with a scandalous Fitch 

I know right 

You aren’t the type 

How do you know? 

I just do 

Just a gut feeling but who knew 

Always you, Sarah, always you in vivid sight, in plain view 

There’s your forgetful cue 

This is for you 

You hand me a stun gun to review and decide if I want to run 

What kind of shit is that? 

No 

I take off the hat, throwing it to the floor, dumping the stun gun on the ground as it bolts out the door after me, belting out my name until the neighbors start looking out their doors for a poor old man that said he can but he knows he can’t at the point of panic in the midst of a global crisis that failed to frisk the risk before it sailed overseas to recount in threes on our steady knees, in steady prayer that God already sees for the salvation that seeks to free the rescued prisoner who was an inmate that tried to convince us he already ate before he became a hostage in foreign hands that are all over the news stands, reporting the breakage of obsolete DNA strands covered in fatal commands that demand nothing less than a sentimental yes that still fits in her wedding dress in the wake of this mighty mess thats better confess the location it chooses to bless once it knows your home address 

I saw it in the flesh 

So did I 

It was running that way 

We point north then south, East then west until paused to focus on its abnormal chest that stopped breathing but was still moving so it could stop proving its value and worth to people like us that could change its point of view pretty self sufficiently that fuels from the low to the lower key and back up when we rescue the pup from the ace of cups that trumps the breast milk it concurrently pumps before it’s dumped in the freezer for a mild teaser and lumped together the drops that drip to bedspread when I’m giving you head and you liked to explore me instead 

I keep my hungry husband well fed 

©️Sarah Herring 2020