Dear Jacob

Dear Jacob, I love you with a love that cannot die. Please know that no matter what. Im so sorry for the time I wasted. For the years I ignored you. I'm so sorry for not loving you the way I do now. I BEGGED God to make me love you for so long. I write this sobbing. Please forgive me. I don't deserve you. I never did. I never will but you love me anyway. I can't possibly fathom why but you do and you do it so gracefully and properly. You are a god yourself, my son. Please, dear Jacob, allow me to show you what it means to be my son. I adore you. I will protect you and I will be your best friend. I promise. Please don't let my folly become your demons. I never want you to feel pain. I want to be pregnant with you forever. Let me love you. I will not betray you, even if it costs me every last thing I have. You are worthy, Jacob. It is your birthright. I will not let you fail. Thank you for choosing me. Thank you for being my son. Because of you, I have eternally won. I owe you all of it with interest. It's yours. I don't want it. Keep it. Cherish it. And please just don't forget me, my precious. You are God to me.

Love, Mommy.

©️SG Herring 8/4/22.

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